Acceptance.

I finally know the next step of God's plan in my life, on January 26,2009 I received my acceptance letter to YWAM-Denver. I can't even explain the emotions that were going through me-joy,nervousness,overwhelming,thankfulness,what I really wanted to do was just praise God- I couldn't stop crying, because I have been praying and waiting for so long about what it is I'm supposed to do with my life. It's going to be so amazing, I just can't wait!

THE PLAN:

• Classes start: October 5,2009-I will be in Colorado for 12 weeks.
• At the end of my 12 weeks I will have a 7-week outreach in another country-I don't know yet what that country will be, when I get to the campus in October they will give me my options and I have 4 weeks to pray about it and see where it is God is calling me for those 7 weeks. They do have a campus in Haiti, two in fact, and I am praying very hard that I will be able to go there for my outreach,but it's all up to Him.
• At the end of my 7 weeks of outreach I will have a one week "debriefing time" and then I will graduate from the discipleship training school.

I am so excited.nervous.overwhelmed.thankful.willing. Before I got my letter Downhere came out with a song, one of the verses goes like this-Here I am, Lord send me All of my life, I make an offering, Here I am, Lord send me Somehow my story is a part of Your plan, Here I am ....And the fear that I'll fail You in the end In this mess, I'm just one of the pieces, I can't put this together but You can-those lyrics explained what I was feeling and going through, I prayed and prayed and told my Jesus that I was willing to go anywhere He asked, all He had to do was tell me, I didn't care where it was because my life wasn't even my life,it was His, He is the one who gave me life and I just want to live to glorify Him. I am nervous about leaving my family, but I know I'm going to be just fine because that's where He has asked me to go. I'm also nervous about the money situation, it has to be paid in full by October, and I don't have a job,or a college fund. But I was nervous about getting the money for the Haiti trip and we got $1500 extra, I know He will provide.

So I had started this blog before church tonight because it usually takes me awhile to write a blog so that I don't miss anything. Tonight Brother Charles taught, we were supposed to be studying the last part of John 1, but as Brother Charles likes to put it he got off on rabbit trails and chased every rabbit in the county:) He was telling us that when we tell God that we want to live for Him, and that we want give our life to our Father we are going to be blessed and see huge changes. He was telling us that "ahava" is Hebrew for love, and if you take the "a" at the beginning and the "a" at the end off it's "hav" which is Hebrew for give, so if we love God our Father we need to be willing to give ourselves to Him. Which should be what we live for anyway=]